158

I have been being better I suppose. I have been drinking a kale juice with lemon juice and ginger that I blend every morning. I've been fasting after the juice until about dinner time, but then I binge. I am not counting calories, I am not being disciplined of my work outs.I've been depressed for some time. It was triggered from my severe anxiety and now I am on medication that makes me feel sane or just numbs it. However, I feel like it inhibits my ability to lose weight. The pills don't make me hungry, but god only knows what it does to my body. I can tell my metabolism definitely slowed down extremely. I need to stop eating completely.I need to save all my money. I have a wedding to plan. I want to be 120 so bad. This picture will be my motivation for the week. I would like to lose these 8 pounds ASAP and move onto my next goal. I am going having my kale juice and then we are going to a shiva which will probably only be carbs, so I will have to choose wisely or fake eat and barely eat. I am going to run a few miles now and clear my head. It's about to explode with all the pressure to lose weight and just be perfect. I know I can be thin and perfect. I know. CW: 158 GW BY END OF WEEK: 150