how long before you screw it up.

I'm fasting today. coffee and water. 110. Stay Strong x0

Be a good girl, try a little harder. That simply wasn't good enough to make us proud.

skinny wins

Me at 118 two weeks ago. My legs were still fat. It's my problem area. SO I feel perhaps once I get to 110, my legs will finally shrink, lets hope so! I am hopefully fasting all day today. I've had about 4 cups of coffee already and water and oops ginger ale but i was starving so i guess soda might be better than food. I'm getting more coffee and going to the library in 20 minutes. Making moves today and not eating! P.S. Ana and Mia bracelets coming soon...I noticed their is not a good resource to order any of them from. I think this is a new little business plan for me and I'll order the supplies and start making them soon. I will also post pictures. Ok so quote of the day : EVERY TIME I HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO EAT, I HAVE THE STRENGTH TO REFUSE.

stay strong x0

Ana's Bitch...Something always brings me back to you & it never takes too long.

Back to being Ana's bitch. Goal is 110, I'm about 120 now yo-yoing between 120-122, so I need to stop eating. Self-control! It's all about getting skinny and getting revenge! Stay Strong Bitches X0

118

how did this happen? i weigh 118?!!?! oh maybe the fact that I haven't barely eaten in 3 days and I'm doing so good. Now i decided I will do anything to be thin cause its my only way to happiness. I used to think love or something else could make me happy but now I understand thin is the way to feel good, the way to happiness. A lot of craziness has been going on this week and I mean insanity!! This blog may be the only thing to keep me sane! My ex boyfriend who has been MIA for 2 yrs came back into my life unexpectingly. I was shocked. He has been one of the major reasons why I decided to be ana. So I decided to go see him two nights ago. I didn't eat the days before since I wanted to look extra skinny. Then I saw him and I thought everything was going to be so different like maybe I could still love him. But no. I went there and I realize how much better I am then him, like now I really realize. Thank You ANA! He said I looked really skinny like I'm a drugs---hey i'll take it. then he made a comment that my legs are still fat. Damn that hurts. But they are. It's my chubby, thick thighs, thank you mother. So new plan and new goal of 110. Because 115 just won't do. I am happy I am at 118. I just ate though lettuce, avocado and 4 small meatballs. No carbs but its the first thing I've had in 3 days and a little bit of carbs since I think my mom puts whole wheat bread in the meatballs. Anyways I feel now that I decided to put my ex in the past with everything else, I just feel free. free to be happy and give all my time to ana. I love starving and feeling empty and focus on other more important things. I'll update more later for now I'm going to go finish up some work and get ready and prepared for what will hopefully be my last semester of college!! woot woot Stay Strong x0

hunger hurts & I want him so bad. oh it kills.

So I fell off. Binged all weekend on crap. Ate yesterday. Today I'm fasting and I'm not eating anything until I lose lets say 5 pounds. So when I'm 120. My new goal is still 115. Intake today: black coffee-5 cals. and drinking lemon water. no food today. none. lets go Stay Strong X0

fiona apple

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FFOzayDpWoI&feature=channel

So fragile we are, we just don't show it. So sexy we are we just don't know it.

all I ate yesterday was a handful of cashews and just drank coffee then selzter and lemon juice til the hunger pains went away. Thank GOD for lemon juice. love it. Going to make some coffee. Good morning. Stay STrong x0

I wanna be like you when I grow up. THiN.

115

love it when you call me LEGS

she throws up, whatever she eats
She leave the bathroom, with a nosebleed
Regular Girl, Celebrity Dreams




She barely eats at all and when she does she eats light. Indulge in a meal, if a toilet's in sight.



Expose those fries, Can't hold them down.To be 7 pounds, you must release 7 pounds.

i binged on bananas

LOL. I almost didn't eat after my coffee last night but I ended up binging on a banana, cheese on whole wheat and frosted flakes. o well. I just weighed myself and my sister is reading my weight first tells me I'm 122 but liess I'm 124 yay lost like 3 pounds. 9 more to go! I have been having seltzer, water and coffee and just had a handful of cashews, going for a coffee run and a run! STAY STRONG X0

Ugh.

So I was trying to fast again today even though I cheated a little this morn, but I just ate dinner. FML
Intake today:
coffee-5 cals
egg whites-30
tablespoon of hummus and sun dried tomatoes (2)-60
banana
2 pieces of chicken
5 spoons of black beans

ok who knows how much that is. I just felt so weak not even hungry, but I'm should be under 500 cal for todays intake. Having coffee now and thats it.

Hunger Hurts, Starving Works

Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
Cuz I know Im a mess he dont wanna clean up
I got to fold cuz these hands are too shaky to hold
hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love.

140

135

130

125

120

115-----------Happiness

Thank YOU ANA

So I pretty much fasted today. Thanks ANA

coffee/skim milk-15 cal

coffee-5 cal

gum- about 4 piece-15 cal

4 kosher dill pickles-0 cal

I took a laxative tea at around 12 am its now 2 :22am going to bed and hopefully will wake up to bowel movements hah gross but I need to get rid of all the shit I've been eating. I wonder if I can fast tom. all day too...lets see. STAY STRONG XO

New Year New Me 2010

It's a new year. new goals. I forgot about Ana and my life went to hell seriously lost control of everything. I gained a couple pounds during finals and holidays. So I'm starting today only coffee and water. If I need to eat I can fake eat. I need to get back to the mentality that food makes me physically ill. GOAL: 120. lets go! stay strong X0